Glenn Frey Eagles tour

Recently the loss of music legends Glenn Frey, David Bowie, and Maurice White made many of us feel melancholy.  Fans of Celine Dion may have grieved for her when she lost both her husband and her brother within a few days.  People sometimes ask me if it is normal for us to grieve when someone that we don’t even know dies.  Are we just overly obsessed fans?  Sometimes callous remarks are made that people who grieve over celebrities should “get a life”.  We didn’t really know them, right?  Of course we don’t know them, but we do have a connection to them.  When John F. Kennedy passed away, a whole nation grieved.  Very few of them ever met the president.  People all over the world grieved for the loss of Princess Diana.

Music holds a unique and powerful place in most of our lives.  You hear “Take It Easy” or “Lying Eyes” by the Eagles and it takes you right back to childhood summers at the local swimming pool.  “Modern Love” comes on the radio, and reminds you of watching David Bowie on MTV with your friends in college.  Maybe you saw Earth, Wind, and Fire on tour just a few years ago and sat listening, as I did, and reminisced about an old love with whom you used to dance to “That’s The Way of The World”.  The artists who created these songs wrote the soundtrack to our life events.  It’s is no wonder that it’s sad to hear of their passing.  It reminds us of our own mortality and, if nothing else, that we are getting older.  When Glenn Frey passed away I heard radio personalities both local and national admit it bummed them out a little.  I had seen The Eagles live just six months prior to the news of his death and it took the wind out of my sails for a bit.  It is normal and healthy to grieve when you lose a part of your life history.  It only becomes a concern if you were already in a debilitating state of grief and this takes you farther down.

People who are in a foggy pattern of grief don’t need much to take them deeper.  Often a person deep in grief will feel like bad news is just piling on, even if the events are years apart.  The truth is that losses such as that of a favorite musician are happening to everyone.  It feels like life is just dealing you blow after blow.  People often say, “What next?” in anticipation.  There is no doubt something else is going to happen.  Both good news and bad comes every day.  It just feels personal and more severe because you are already hurting.  If these kinds of things are causing you grief that you can’t shake, don’t ignore it.  Talk to someone that understands and can help you.  Often you just need to express your grief to someone who is not judgmental and can help guide you through it.  If you are grieving and seek help, there are a variety of options.  Email me at kime.eubanks@gmail.com for suggestions.

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faceless-grey-gray-man-in-the-fog-750“That’s the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it’s impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key.”        Elizabeth Wurtzel

 

The fog of grief can be overwhelming and debilitating, leaving the grieving person unable to function properly.  Even the most familiar daily tasks become difficult or impossible to complete.  When there is a painful shift in your life, nothing makes sense anymore.  You can’t return to the familiar because the much of the familiar doesn’t exist anymore.  It never will again.  You are left feeling consumed by the unknown, in despair, immobile.  This can be a consuming fog for a person who has experienced the loss of a family member, a friend, or even a job.  We often speak of fog as “lifting” but grief this deep usually doesn’t just go away.  Nobody, no matter how much they love you, can take it away.  Somehow, you have to find your own way out of the fog and into a new beginning.

For me it was the loss of my wife, Tina, after her battle with cancer that brought the fog.  Well, it really began before that.  I remember while she was in ICU and I knew she would not come home again, a close friend came by to visit.  He said, “Are you okay?  You seem to be in a fog.”  I wasn’t okay and he could see it.   The fog had already drifted in when, after an eight month battle, the doctor told me we weren’t going to win.  My mind couldn’t handle it.  What will I tell the kids?  What will I say to her parents?  Should I keep fighting?  Am I giving up too easily?  How will we live without her?  These were just a few of the many layers of fog that began to cloud my mind and there was no good answer for any of them.  For the first time of my life I could not say myself, “It will all be okay.”  Of course it only got worse a few days later when she truly left us.  Grief and depression came to stay after the funeral.

Grief and depression do not have to come together.  A person can most certainly have depression which is not brought on by grief.  Likewise it is possible to move through the grief process without becoming deeply depressed, but it is not as likely if you try to do it alone.  Along with the support of family and friends, sometimes the help of a professional is needed to help find a new and happier life.  I help people find their way out of the fog.  I started Genesis Grief Care to help people find their own Genesis, their new beginning.  I have a variety of options to help.  First of all keep reading this blog.  I will be updating with new information regularly.  If you would like help please contact me at 501-249-9810 or email me at kime.eubanks@gmail.com for help.  Let me help you find your new life.